meet crosby //

He's finally here! Crosby Mathis Harman was born on February 12.... weighing in at 6.15, and measuring 19.5 inches. He is just the sweetest, yummiest babe.

On Tuesday, at my 39 week appointment, I went in to see my doctor. My last 2 visits I had had some high blood pressure, and just the worst headaches. They tested me the week before to see if I had preeclampsia. Luckily, I didn't. My doctor saw me and said, let's just do this! He told me to go get something to eat, get my stuff and head over to the hospital. He told me this baby would be here tomorrow!

Knowing when the baby was coming was sooo nice! Mathis and I went and ate, my sister in-laws came over and did my nails, I showered, and got ready. <<How perfect. I was sooo worried my water would break in front of my students. I can only imagine what they would have said.

We got to the hospital and they started <<inserting>> these pills that would soften my cervix. I started having contractions a few hours later. By morning they were really bad! I got my epidural (miracle drug.. i don't know how anyone does it naturally!) and the doctor came in and broke my water. The rest of the afternoon was just a waiting game.

At around 7, the nurse checked me and i was completely dilated. She said let's do a practice push before the doctor gets here.. Um, I thought he was going to just fall out of me. She ran to get my doctor, because cros was so ready to get here. 

Not knowing if we were having a boy or girl was so fun! Every nurse was just as excited as we were I think. My entire family had taken bets on the gender, and the weight. Mathis and I for sure thought we were having a girl. Well, the doctor got there.. I pushed like 7 times, and he was here! He came out face down, so the doctor waited a second to flip him over. The anticipation was just about killing everyone in that room. When he flipped him over, I was completely shocked! I guess I don't have a very good motherly intuition because I was like 90% sure it was a girl.

That day was one of the best days of my life! I still cry when I think about it. I could never have imagined how much love I could feel for this tiny human instantly. I am beyond obsessed with my little guy. Even though the recovery was (is) awful, and nights are long, I could never ask for anything more.

Cros turned 1month old yesterday! How can 1 month of pregnancy feel like a year, but 1 month of him being here feels like 1 minute?

I am absolutely smitten with this boy!!