seven months

I always heard parents say that kids grow up so fast. Until I had a baby of my own, I never fully understood it... I cannot believe my babe is 7 months old already! Part of me feels like he was just born, while the other part can't remember what it was like without him in our lives.

 I think I hit the baby jackpot with Crosby. He really is such a good baby. It makes me so nervous for our next one.. What are the chances I have two amazing babies?

Cros is //usually/ so smiley and happy. He is sitting up + rolling over, but has NO interest in crawling.. which is just fine by me. He loovves bath time. He kicks his legs all day long. He'll eat anything I give him.. he's not picky when it comes to food. He is completely obsessed with being outside... which is a little tricky during Arizona summers. It's at least 110+ degrees outside.. SO, you can find us at the pool pretty much everyday, and taking walks at night (even though its still in the 90s.) He's kind of becoming attached to Mathis and me. . . We're working on it.

 I think I love him more and more each day. I wish I could just freeze time!

losing the B

Well, I've been a mom for 6 months, and I still don't really know what I'm doing. Let me tell you the latest...


Last week I decided I was done with the binky. Am I crazy?? I had two reasons behind this decision. 1. If I get rid of it now, won't it be easier than in 1 year when he's super attached to it? 2. Cros had been waking up for a few nights (like 2 am) in a row crying because his bink would fall out. I would get up, put it back in and he would instantly fall back asleep. I thought that was a piece of cake. Well, just as I would be falling back asleep, 40 minutes later, he would spit it out again and wake up. So, by the time I finally fell back asleep, I had been awake for nearly 2 hours. I'm not cut out for that. I need my 9-10 hours of sleep! I have been so lucky to have a baby that was sleeping through the night at like 6 weeks. (I know... some of you  might hate me right now).


So, last week I took it away. Crosby isn't overly attached to it, thankfully.. I only give it to him in his crib. The first few days were really hard. He would scream at nap time, and it would take a while for him to fall asleep at night. Then, he started falling asleep easier and easier. Just as I thought we were making progress, we drove to Utah. I don't know what I was thinking starting this little experiment before we drove 10 hours! Of course I had to give him his binky in the car. A small enclosed space, where we can't walk away... duh.


When we get back to Arizona next week, do I try to train him to go to sleep without a binky again? That thought kind of makes me want to throw up. Is it better to have a binky when he's teething? Does it matter? Should I just do it now and get it over with?  Or, should I just let him have it and not worry about it? YOLO right?

newborn pics + blessing (picture overrrload)

A few weeks ago, we had our friend Harmony take some newborn(ish) pictures of Cros. She did an amazing job! Everyone needs a photographer friend. I know I'll look back on these pictures in a few years and just die all over again.

We also had Crosby's blessing a couple weeks ago. We decided to do it at my parents house and invite family and a few friends. It. was. perfect. Mathis' parents are on a mission in Vermont, and their mission president let them fly in to be here. They left for their mission three days before Cros was born!

I wanted to do a few decorations, but nothing too extreme.

Believe it or not, there were 21 guys in this circle! Crosby is pretty popular

over pictures

This was such a special day! Mathis gave an amazing blessing. I am so lucky to be his wife.

Words cannot express my gratitude for this little guy. After having a miscarriage, I just realize how blessed I am to be a mom. That was one of the hardest times in my life. I felt like I was in some sort of fog and I couldn't escape it. But, Crosby has brought so much joy into our lives. He was totally worth the wait!!

meet crosby //

He's finally here! Crosby Mathis Harman was born on February 12.... weighing in at 6.15, and measuring 19.5 inches. He is just the sweetest, yummiest babe.

On Tuesday, at my 39 week appointment, I went in to see my doctor. My last 2 visits I had had some high blood pressure, and just the worst headaches. They tested me the week before to see if I had preeclampsia. Luckily, I didn't. My doctor saw me and said, let's just do this! He told me to go get something to eat, get my stuff and head over to the hospital. He told me this baby would be here tomorrow!

Knowing when the baby was coming was sooo nice! Mathis and I went and ate, my sister in-laws came over and did my nails, I showered, and got ready. <<How perfect. I was sooo worried my water would break in front of my students. I can only imagine what they would have said.

We got to the hospital and they started <<inserting>> these pills that would soften my cervix. I started having contractions a few hours later. By morning they were really bad! I got my epidural (miracle drug.. i don't know how anyone does it naturally!) and the doctor came in and broke my water. The rest of the afternoon was just a waiting game.

At around 7, the nurse checked me and i was completely dilated. She said let's do a practice push before the doctor gets here.. Um, I thought he was going to just fall out of me. She ran to get my doctor, because cros was so ready to get here. 

Not knowing if we were having a boy or girl was so fun! Every nurse was just as excited as we were I think. My entire family had taken bets on the gender, and the weight. Mathis and I for sure thought we were having a girl. Well, the doctor got there.. I pushed like 7 times, and he was here! He came out face down, so the doctor waited a second to flip him over. The anticipation was just about killing everyone in that room. When he flipped him over, I was completely shocked! I guess I don't have a very good motherly intuition because I was like 90% sure it was a girl.

That day was one of the best days of my life! I still cry when I think about it. I could never have imagined how much love I could feel for this tiny human instantly. I am beyond obsessed with my little guy. Even though the recovery was (is) awful, and nights are long, I could never ask for anything more.

Cros turned 1month old yesterday! How can 1 month of pregnancy feel like a year, but 1 month of him being here feels like 1 minute?

I am absolutely smitten with this boy!!

baby baby

well, I've made it to 34 weeks! As my stomach keeps growing, and my back pain is almost intolerable, I feel like all i'm thinking about is when this little babe will be here. I wish these six weeks would fly by... but at the same time, my to-do list is never ending!!

 I'm getting sooo anxious to find out if this little babe will be a he, or a she, and who s/he'll look like!